lost

Ever get that feeling that you don't know exactly what's going on? Ever have that nagging voice at the back of your head which indicates that the sum total of your knowledge at this point, right now, right here, is not exactly up to par with everyone around you? Ever have a sneaky little suspicion that you only have part of the story in your head?

Confusion is, I believe, a fairly natural state.

We can't all be experts on everything all the time and thus certain situations, instructions or eventualities are bound to leave us feeling a little out of our depth. Starting a new job or in a new school is the perfect example: we need to take copious notes, familiarise ourselves with our surroundings, get to know the new people, try to understand the new procedures and processes, remember all the little foibles and intricacies which every office and school bring to us, all in an effort to avoid unnecessary confusion. We don't want to appear as though we are clueless so we make every effort to appear informed, and if we can't manage that, then we try to look as though we are quick learners.

And i am mostly confused about things that i shouldn't be and about matters i should have long decided about.

M # Tuesday, September 02, 2008.