self-denial
Ivy: "I know why you deny my sister. When I was younger, you used to hold my arm when I walked. Then suddenly you stopped. One day, I even tripped in your presense, and almost fell. I was faking, of course. But still, you did not hold me...
Sometimes we don't do things we want to do, so that others won't know we want to do them."
Sometimes we don't do things we want to do, so that others won't know we want to do them."