girl in the video
It's my own warped way of determining how much i want you to know.
Perhaps thats why true friends are far and few. By my definition of 'true', i mean friends whom i really trust to be the keeper of secrets, of my burdens and whose numbers i dial in the quiet of the night. You always feel closer to people who confide in you; it's like the next time you do the same to them, you feel kinda safe with your hostage of his or her secrets with you. But it's not easy to be vulnerable for well..no reason. You try it yourself. Write your deepest, darkest secrets on a banner and fly it across the azure Singapore sky. Whoopee. I remember i had this nightmare when i was a kid - all the things i did that i was ashamed of, ALL of them, they were chronicled in a neverending video shown to my entire primary school class. Oh gawd. I woke up in cold sweat and remembering it bitterly for more than 10 years down the road.
Then again, what if it really happened? I'm not sure how i can live though. But if you ever find that video, just know that i am truly sorry and please continue to love me for me okay? Warts, pimples on the nose and all.
Mari Christmas in advance.
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